how's it supposed to make you feel when the person you love most in this world feels uncomfortable around you? you cry, but it only adds to the sea of waves that are crashing down on you. you know ur going to drown, but you do nothing about it b/c you just don't care anymore. nothing means anything to anyone anymore b/c you mean nothing to her, and that's the final wave, the one that pulls you under. your friends all watch, and no one tries to save you, b/c they all told you not to go into the water in the first place. "the sign's posted right there. that water's not good enough for you," they said. but this you didn't care, b/c they were all wrong in the first place, weren't they?
 

-- the ocean, from fujii's "the black folder," 2001